make up your mind

Downloaded the cast recording to Next to Normal, a new Broadway show that's opening next week. Sounds...intriguing. I'd like to see it, somehow I don't think it's going to last.

There's this one song that seems like it's appropriate to my situation.  Of course, if you put it in context, it's absolutely not related at all. And it's all back and forth between two characters, but for all intents and purposes they could be the alternating thoughts in my own head once you take it out of context.

Make up your mind to explore yourself

Make up your mind you have stories to tell

We're searching your past

For what sorrows may last

Then make up your mind to be well

Make up your mind that you're strong enough

Make up your mind, let the truth be revealed

Admit what you've lost

And live with the cost

At times, it does hurt to be healed

Catch me, I'm falling...

Catch me, I'm falling...

Please hear me calling

Catch me, I'm falling for good

Make up your mind you want clarity

Take what you know and then make it make sense

Just face what you fear

And soon it comes clear

The visions are just your defense

Make  up your mind to get well at last

Make up your mind to be fully alive

Embrace it inside

Replace what has died

Then make up your mind you'll survive

Catch me I'm falling...

Catch me I'm falling...

Flying head first into fate

Catch me, I'm falling...

Please hear me calling

Catch me before it's too late

Make up your mind this is clarity

Clarity that you did not have before

The treatment is strong

But lasts only so long

Maybe your mind's needing more

Make up your mind that you'll try again

Make up your mind that there are moments of light

The one thing that's sure

Is that there is no cure

But that doesn't mean we don't fight!

Catch me, I'm falling

Sinking and sprawling

Maybe I let myself fall

Catch me, I'm falling

Maybe the falling

Isn't so bad after all

Make up your mind to be free

Watch me, I'm falling

Make up your mind to be free

Watch me, I'm flying

Make  up your mind to be free

And somehow surviving.

So I'm weighing my options and making a choice. And it's sooner than later.