as the spin bike turns

I got my unofficial heads up earlier today -- the days are very numbered. Though short on specifics, a very reliable source has said it's all but a signature away.

It's funny, too -- this past week has been one trauma after another. Catching employees stealing or forging, other employees getting arrested for non-work related problems, endless phone calls from hired counsel trying to salvage long-defunct memberships for cheapskate members... after the conference call yesterday to announce the bankruptcy, it all just sort of rolled off my back. And then today's call (which did not come from the company, by the way -- a well placed source who's been looking out for me)...I'm relieved. After the pile of shit I've had to wade through for the last month, I can finally just relax and know that soon, it'll all be history, and I can pursue the next chapter of my life unbridled.

This perspective, however, will be short lived. Already, I know that I need to cancel a dentist appointment for Monday tomorrow because that extra change in my pocket will be vital in a few weeks time. One never knows when he'll have to jump on a plane for an interview at a moment's notice.

And I must say... THANK GOD for the COBRA subsidy that was included in the stimulus package. It's likely that come July, I will be going on meds. Without insurance of some kind I would never be able to afford them. The subsidy runs for nine months... more than enough time to find a new position and secure a new insurance package...we hope.

And oddly enough, should that rotten day come that I do lose my insurance... the best thing for me to do would probably be to move back to NYC. There are numerous organizations that exist solely for this type of situation -- most notably, the Callen Lourde Community Health Center.

In the meantime, I'm running out the clock...waiting for better days. And flossing a little extra to make up for that missed dentist's appointment.

bankrupt

Oops.

My company filed for bankruptcy this morning. "Business as usual" is our operational mantra at the moment.

Now taking all bets on how long I'll stay employed with them!